hoping

I wanna get a new magnifico life..

Amien.

hhh

Awww its been a long time i didnt write my blog!
Hell-o blog here i come..

Just to recap, ive been through the most killer term ever in my college life: term 5!
There were sooooooooo many friggin ASSes everyday i dealed with asses i even never gone out in every weekend euw THANK GOD now its over! And i fucked up on my finals oh God please i wish all my results are passed.. Amien..

And now i have to deal with another CUEK guy! Mamaaaaaaaa that thing is the MOST thing i loathe on earth ok but why oh why i always cope with persons like that? Grrr enough is enough please hiks. Tired.

I only wish for the best way out. Amien
, yet i miss him. Sigh...

wish me a good one

!

oh f*ck a week left?

need more time

here

if theres something i could do just to make me stay here longer, i'll definitely do it.
really, just to imagine that i'll be going back "there" in 2 weeks, it makes me wanna cry so much. dammit.
i'd do anything God just to be here,

i wanna be here..

GOSH!

PLEASE STOP JUDGING ME!
you really dont know anything!

and stop blaming me for everything happened!

b* the mood ruiner

i just read a wall
and it really pisses me off! just because they have a history, this b* can simply said the word. OH CONGRATS, B*!

sigh.. i really need this stupid loser (like neni said) to end ok im SICK and TIRED! this one wont ever realize and its just stupid stupid pathetic stupid pain in an arse, SHOOT!

give me 5 days then I PROMISE i will stop doing something related to that loser (again, like neni said)

i really want this to end, God

nothings left to say..

i really wanna scream these 3 words out: i miss you

i think im failed to get rid of these thoughts on my hols (cos i was planning to do so). tired! i dont know why this one is so hard to kick out shoot

GOD, please help me...

mentog

so?

what is best?

keep on trying...

or just stop?

merenung part two

just had a conversation with this psychology, gosh my eyes are suddenly opened! actually all these shits are just as simple as what he has said, yet so cruel.. very very cruel.
i never thought that they all have the same dirty purpose euw cause if not, the ending wont be all the same like this, right?

(but still just now i was checking the fb)
please abis STOP DOING IT COS THIS HAS GOT TO STOP!

YES, this has totally got to come to an end. just think, they all are the same.

arsehole

YES... but ouch

haha finally mu is defeated! what a peaceful world seeing those faggots got pissed especially for their revolting manager who seemed cannot stop chewing his gum gum. euww

BUT please, AGAIN my happy moment came into a sudden "ouch" when i heard a song that was on tv. Gosh can please just for one day i dont have to deal with anything related to that person? sigh..

im really asking, WHAT AM I TO DO?

hate me so good that you just let me out, let me out

Babon

please abis gue gendut gila argh how how how and ive a wedding thingy coming which i have to wear KEBAYA gosh i reckon i will look like a big fat ms. piggy in it! WHAT A NIGHTMARE!

OK what to do what to do come on i will be having my holiday meaning to say that its my time to enjoy my hometown delicacies and eat like a pig BUT with my big belly like rite now? HELL NO WAY JOSE arrrggghhhhhh its stressed me out really.

curcol: missing more and more each day makes me want to disappear from this meany world. i think the best way is just to brainwash myself. somebody please i need a brainwash desperately! sigh.. please say something dong

aaaargggggghhhhh!

you are my destiny, jai hooooo

okay that song is stuck in my head since days ago till now im still repeating it over and over again. hahaha

today is my last day of training! yeehaaaaa im oh-so-happy as i dont have to wake up early in the morning anymore haha and i will be going home SOON, finally! cant wait!

know what? this curiosity is killing me! so many WHY questions are running in my head and its just... driving me crazy (i know it sounds lame yet its true) and im tired of whining (i reckon others are sick of my same whinings too duh)
so... im facing walls now. if only that person could realize that... argh crap wtv! im trying to stop being a mellow pathetic biatch grrr

ok back to jaiho, my housemates are praticing the jai-ho dance and are planning to tape it and launch it on... ok i dont know yet haha im just being the person on the back screen tsah

eniweiss i just want to thank these two best guy friends ever! i really feel much better after whining to both of them ;) p.s. thank you for your patience xx

so from now on im hoping that i could just get over that person, oh God help me please..

Jai-Ho!

merenung

Gosh ive no idea what more to say yet my head has so many thoughts i just want to scream out loud. cant stand this anymore.

I wish my life would be as simple as "I'll put a spell on you, you'll fall asleep and when i wake you i'll be the first thing you see. And you realize that you love me" (another genius lyrics by Matt Hales).

Sigh.. im wondering why my life in this year seems so harsh. so many different cases occured with so many tears and dramas and all those whinings jeezz (but right now and for "this one" obstacle, im trying not to cry and so far i havent). Actually life is not about guys or falling in love or falling out of love stuff only, but i seem easily get stuck in those such situations, and the thing is: they never last for long and they dont seem to end.

God, what do they want from me?

What am i to do?

I'm mentally tired, i mean it.

you had me at hello, but now...

Need to know

I don't wanna know

Already know

I've seen the signs
I watch you as you pull yourself away from me

Can't believe

I wanna believe

How can i believe

You're making me doubt

I thought i knew you

I don't even know myself

I'm losing faith I'm losing all faith

You're breaking my heart

Breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart again

Don't ask me to start

Ask me start

Don't ask me to start again, start again

I wanna fight

Afraid to fight

Why don't i fight

And make you see

I hold my breath

And disappear inside myself

I'm losing strength, i'm losing all strength

You're breaking my heart

Breaking my heart

You're breaking my heart again

Don't ask me to start

Ask me to start

Just don't ask me to start again, start again

Oh you're breaking my heart again

Don't ask me to start

Ask me to start

Just don't ask me to start again

Start again

No

Oh no no

I'm losing you

I'm losing, oh, you

Aqualung's Breaking My Heart always gets me. Sigh..

EMANG WASIT BANGSAT!

For replying my previous blog:

SAMPAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF with the referee that was involved to this moning's match? (refering to MR.TOM HENNING OVREBO) HE WAS OBVIOUSLY STUPID! DOH COULDNT HE SEE HANDSBALL OCCURED TWICE? DOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i apparently dont have any mood to watch any football matches again and i swear to God i will never ever support MU, they are just bunch of arrogant fags, dis-gus-ting. F U !

& i hate iniesta too

Don't be blue tonight please

OK im a bit nervous for tomorrow morning's football match. please wish a huge victory for Chelsea! Amien..

nothing left to say, just keep praying for a victory Amien

bahh

haha seems like aqualung's "strange and beautiful" song is getting into me. ok it actually always gets into me but right now at this moment i believe that one of the lines is so right! errr two lines actually:

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes

sigh.. this morning the forgotten person suddenly came back to life, oh come on you are so obsolete, prick! hiaeuhaieuaeh see how i love to be free! but oh shoot. im not free... yet, duh! zzz

hey you, go away

pen ngamuk

I WANNA BE FREE FOR ONCE PLEASE!

sigh.. sigh.. sigh...

Coz you're so great and i love you

Gosh im having a serious Blur Fever rite now! as i cant stop listening to the "You're So Great" song and plus theres one vid of Damon and Graham on youtube that successfully made me suddenly cry. oh my zzz

I only have one wish rite now: is to get a chance to see Blur live (thank God they reunite again, doh!) Amien

OK back to reality, hmm my lifes pretty good recently (except the fact that "that" guy is still living in lies HA) and someones kicked out already (FINALLY) so im oh so happy now, free of jerks and dramas, what a life yeehaaaaaa
And im overdosed by the 90's which is oh so nice and now at this moment im so frigging sleepy as i slept at 5 and woke up at 6.45 something arrrghhhhh so craving for sleeping! zzz and OH SHOOT! errr... ok just shoot.

p.s. PLEASE someone stop me from drinking coke too much, can?

I LOVE BLUR

Why drama

havent been 3 months here but jeeezz ive through loads of drama! i feel like my life 2 months back was pretty a mess. ok lets not talk about it, CASES ARE CLOSED!

one word: CAPEK.

DOSA APA SIH GUEE??!!

herraaaaaaann!

STOP

you act like you know me well
you speak like you know the bloody truth
you think like you are always right
unfortunately you don't
you are just living in lies

think, that person has no brain. that's all

Assimento says lets cry

dear ios, bok its not that i counted you out but i knew that u got so many assimento to do so i didnt want to disturb you with that. awww but still we hung out, didnt we?

ok back to work. errr... again, nothing to do! gosh i really have to make myself busy unless these same thoughts will again make me stressed out, like RIGHT NOW. please somebody just choke me! $%$#QRT*Q#TY#%
and wowweeee surprise surprise! this morning when i just put my ass on my chair and opened facebook, took me only like 2minutes to...ttererotoeoreett cry. ha ftw please hell-o i was and still in the office and i just simply cried? what a moron!

say it, just say it

holsholshols

OK im in the process of doing my internship. at first i was so frigging scared: work man, work! working is a so-not-me thing and me doing working is like flying without wings (please why i use that kinda words, oh so lame! zzz) eheh the point is it is such an unbelievable thing to be done by me as im a very very lazy person (SEE i admit it so much and im proud) bahah

BUT all my worries and fears are gone! you know why? because working here in my place is very very free and easy (absolutely for me) hihi i almost got nothing to do for almost everyfckinday! yeeeeehaaaaaaa plus the staffs here all are very very friendly so im so ok to do internship hihi
and please my manager gives me a very long break (actually it is only a 2days holiday BUT surprisingly he said "you take a long break and come back here on the 3rd" : which is 1week) bahahhahha yeehaaa sure sir, no problem! hihi but i feel like im kicked out, doh! hiaehiaeiae

BUT HELL-O! one week hols? what will i do then? first, many of my friends are still not coming back here yet. second, my dad will visit me only for 3days. third, my lovely house mate will go out of state with her bf for a week. dooooooohh what am i suppose to do then, hu? i will be alone at home for a week! arrrrgggghhhhhh zzz
oh God i hope my hols will be ok and fun and many ha-ha thingy happened. im just hoping it wont be boring AT ALL! Amien.

please please please keep praying for my upcoming days until my internships over, i hope it will run smoothly and meet a success, Amien.

Happy Hols! ;)