Sigh

It's almost a year since I posted "For the first time" and right at this second, the song still hits me... so badly.

This realizes me that... nothing much has changed in my life; only I was the one who said the cruel words. Yet, it's never a happy ending.

This is tiring. Really.

Life, what do you want from me?

This is what I called 'Love'.

Don't get the title wrong and assume that I am mentally damage as I'm trying to explain what it is between me and him; and to avoid further confusion, here I'm declaring that it is his music that I've been prattling about.

I'm sure that I can't live without music. Although I don't listen to all types of music, I will still consider myself as a music freak anyway. And it's hard for me to determine what kind of music I like, so by doing the opposite way - figure out songs that are not in my iTunes and iPod - you'll know.

And here I am wanting to tell the world how much love I have for Damien Rice.

It is something in the way he delivers a song.

I am always hypnotized by songs that have an emotion element in it; and it's not gonna be just a song. Whether it is recording or live, it is the feel of emotion that makes the song live.

Damien Rice has it. He has that emotion in every song he sings. His lyrics are just genius; simple yet complex. He is a pure honesty.

And after listening to him covering One by U2, I am just........... happy. I am happy for the fact that he is still singing and I am happy for the fact that he never fails to bring a beam on me. The way the lyrics are changed, the way the song is delivered; it's just beyond perfect.

So it's not about a boyfriend and girlfriend love relationship; it is what I feel everytime I listen to his songs, and maybe only me know.

And dear Mr. Damien Rice, please do make more songs; I beg and plead you.

Damien Rice and a guitar are more than enough.

This is what I called music; emotion.

For The First Time

Huge thanks to The Script!

She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart

While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar

And we don't know how we got into this mad situation

Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time

I've got a new job now in the unemployment line

And we don't know how we got into this mess it's a gods test

Someone help us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine

Sit talking up all night

Saying things we haven't for a while

We're smiling but we're close to tears

Even after all these years

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting

For the first time

She's in line at the door with her head held high

While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight

But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts

When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine

Sit talking up all night

Saying things we haven't for a while

We're smiling but we're close to tears

Even after all these years

We just now got the feeling that we're meeting

For the first time

Oh these times are hard

Yeah they're making us crazy

Don't give up on me baby

on repeat.

2011,APR

Initially, the brain and the heart are in the same line

After some time, they're battling one another

Causing silence, causing confusion

When the brain says 'hang in there', the heart replies 'i've been...

...it's tiring and i'm tired'

And the only thing left that speaks is the eyes

They shed a little tear, eventually

And shout...

'Well, hit me; Am well prepared'

It's like... waiting for a wall to speak

Being an Intern for the second time

Hi, Blog!

Been long time I never post, my last term in Degree that time was VERY VERY HECTIC! Geeezz TOO MANY ASSes at that time and some more I've got that non-stop ASSignment called disshittation. Thank you GOD everything is over now.. I hope I'll pass all subjects and graduate soon. AMIEN YA ALLAH.

Currently I'm doing my second internship for 2 months before officially graduating, and again I'm stuck here. Ergh fine it's not half year like the previous internship anyway so I just have to bear with it.

Wish me luck! Gonna continue once I have the mood. I'm currently not in a good mood, I don't know why (tetot, obviously lying) Anyway, just wish me luck with this internship. I can't wait to go back to my hometown for good!

Dear time, please fly fast...

a Blue World Cup

Hi blog, really long time no see, eh?

Ok I'm officially doing my degree now, half year to go and then I'm done with these studies (AMIEN); goodbye assholements and asshitments! Haha *big big grin* but before totally being declared 'free' from college life, I've to do another internship (again).. Where to go huh? I'm still blur. Anywhere but here for sure!

I'm feeling blue blah blih blooee that is why I'm touching this blog again (see, another stoopeed never ending dramas are ready to tell). Emo oh emo..... I'm really wondering when will these shits end? Oh Lord..

Actually I have made a promise to myself on the very beginning of this year, is to stop dealing with what I call shits and bollocks. It worked out at first but suddenly... again... met a failure for having blablabla. Well, you all know what is the ending. One word: SAME.

Same beginning, same ending OH WHAT THE HECK?!!?!??!?!!?

I loathe those vandals!!! A LOT.

NVM. I'm trying so hard here to do what I have to do, just like the old days.. I'm used to it already (lame lame lame) indeed just feel lazy have to get through the phase by phase, which now I'm still erm yaa just say 25% out of 100%. Slow duuhhh

Ah there is an important thing happening now, way more important, people!

WORLD CUP

Eventually! After 4 years of waiting I can go gaga for my ancestor's origin: Spain (plus Brazil and Portugal like usual haha) again. Go, Spain! I don't wanna make another moron idea; like not eating chicken for days cause France beat my three chosen countries.. Ya I know it's stupid and turns out it was actually my idea. Duuhhh haeiuhaieuhua

The World Cup just started 2 days ago and 'beautifully' I missed the opening ceremony hhh wtf and it's still 3 days to go to see Spain. SO LONG I CAN'T WAIT!

Oh shoot it's already 6.15 in the bloody morning, I will just end this non sense ok ahahahak just... wish the blablabla case will be out of mind soon, real soon please I'm begging here, God... Amien.

Viva Espana!

hoping

I wanna get a new magnifico life..

Amien.